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One of five
romances chosen for Best Fiction of 2001 by Library Journal.
"Jill Marie Landis pulled off a
masterpiece of writing when she wrote SUMMER MOON. Thank you, Ms.
Landis, for giving your readers a knock-out, knock your socks off
read" Reader to Reader
"A heroine seeking a new beginning, a hero trying to come to terms
with a soul-shattering past, and a terrified, confused little boy in
search of his identity drive this poignant, heartwarming novel that
steers in the direction of women's fiction. Featuring good writing
and exceptionally well-drawn characters, it should appeal to fans of
LaVyrle Spencer and Kristin Hannah." Library Journal
"An
embittered, emotionally scarred man, a confused, frightened child
and a woman who fights for her dreams and is willing to do whatever
she must to heal their wounded souls, make SUMMER MOON a
heart-tugging romance. The slowly growing love between all three
characters touches our deepest emotions and brings a sweet tear and
gentle smile to readers seeking that soul-stirring read." –
Romantic Times Magazine
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"Top Pick" Review
"This sweet but not-too-sugary romance is a breezy, beach-blanket
read, offering up well-developed characters, a compelling plot line
and a pleasing slice of Americana." Publishers Weekly
Prologue
Applesby, Maine
Winter 1849.
“Turn your face to the wall, Katie, and stop that coughin’.” With
her chest and throat burning, racked with chills that shook her thin
frame, nine-year-old Katie Whittington huddled in her narrow bed.
“Katie, I mean it. Stop it now.”
Only half-awake, at first she thought she had dreamed her mother’s
voice, so familiar, tinged with a hard-edged, soulless quality that
held no love. But then she heard it again, clearly and for real, and
the sound burrowed into sleep-fogged corners of her mind, waking her
completely. There were the other sounds, too. Throaty moans,
whimpers, sharp, keening cries. A man’s harsh, ragged breathing. The
whining protest of coiled bedsprings from across the
cramped, cluttered room.
Katie rubbed her eyes and tried to hold back the hollow, jarring
cough, but it erupted anyway. She covered her mouth with both hands
and listened to the coupling noises, kept her back to the room and
hoped that Mama wouldn’t yell at her again.
She lay there pretending to sleep through the noise, painting pretty
pictures in her head, dreaming of another life, another world for
her and Mama-the kind of world she had only glimpsed from afar, the
kind she could barely
imagine.
In her lovely dream world, she and Mama wore pretty dresses, clean
dresses, with starched lace and ruffles, and there were pretty hats
to match. The weather was always warm and sunny, and whenever they
walked down the street, no one stepped aside or turned away. No one
pointed at them or
whispered as they strolled along in their pastel finery.
Mama had tried to teach her to ignore the stares and whispers of the
townsfolk, but the rudeness still cut Katie to her soul, and it
always would.
She hugged the torn wool blanket and coughed again, then wiped the
palm of her hand on the dirty sheet that was little more than a rag.
The linens in her dream home would be soft and clean. There would be
a fancy yellow cover on her bed, too, just like one she had seen
through the window of a big white house up on Poplar Street. She
would have lace curtains,
fancy as snowflakes that would never melt, hanging at every window.
The sun would stream through them, casting strands of precious
yellow gold around her very own room-a room bigger than the shack
she lived in now. There would
be pretty china plates piled high with more food than any one person
could ever eat all by herself.
The roof would never leak. The windows would glisten, and there
would not be even one single crack in them. Wind would never sneak
through holes in the windows or walls.
She shivered, her teeth chattering. Without warning, she started
coughing again, but this time it went on and on until she lay on her
side gasping for air like a dying fish.
“Katie!”
“Jeezus, can’t you shut that kid up?”
Katie rolled herself into a tight ball, hugging the thin blanket
around her shoulders. Her hands were stiff with cold, her feet
nearly numb even though she had climbed into bed in her heavy shoes
and socks.
She tried to picture her pretty dream house and all the lovely
dresses again, and the plates piled high with hot food.
When the images would not come, she looked up at the frosted
windowpane above her head. Between the ripped curtain and halo of
frost crystals, she could see a sliver of moon and one lone star
shining in the night sky.
She closed her eyes and wished upon that star. She wished all her
dreams would come true. Then she opened her eyes, thankful that the
moon was not full tonight.
On moonless nights it was easier for her to disappear in-side
herself and shut out the sound of Mama and the men. On moonless
nights she was less tempted to watch.
But on nights when the moon hung full and heavy in the starless sky,
she would silently turn away from the wall, stare through the
milk-white light, and watch the shapes writhing on the bed. She
would peer over the edge of her blanket and watch as Mama
entertained the men who came scratching at the door.
* * *
She must have
fallen asleep, for the next thing she knew, Mama’s hand was on her
shoulder, shaking her awake. The room smelled of burning whale oil.
The single lamp on the crate beside Mama’s bed cast a weak halo in
the corner.
“Katie, get up and put your coat on.”
Mama stripped off the blanket and tossed Katie the ugly green wool
coat that some little girl across town had outgrown. They had found
it in the bottom of the Christmas charity box that the
“self-righteous do-gooders” (as Mama liked to call them) had left
sitting on the front stoop last year.
Suffering through another fit of coughing, wiping rusty phlegm on
the sheet, Katie sleepily protested. “It’s still the middle of the
night, Mama.”
“Get up. We have to go.”
“Where? Where do we have to go in the dark? It’s cold out,” Katie
whined.
Mama didn’t answer.
Katie pulled herself up, climbed off the bed. Mama held Katie’s coat
as she shoved the girl’s arms into sleeves that did not cover her
wrists. Katie looked around for her faded red scarf, but Mama
grabbed her arm before she could find it.
“Come on.”
“Where are we going?” Mama would not look at her, and Katie began to
worry and wonder why she was acting so strangely. “I’m sorry I keep
coughing, Mama. I can’t help it.”
“You almost lost me a night’s wage.”
Before she could promise not to cough again, Katie doubled over with
another spasm.
Her mother pulled a tattered cotton hankie out of the bodice of her
torn gown and handed it to her. Then she grabbed her by the wrist,
dragged her across the room, and opened the door. Katie ducked her
head to avoid the blustery wind that sailed in off the sea and tried
to keep up as her mother tugged her down one cold, deserted street
after another.
Katie knew most of the lanes near the wharf by heart. They had
trodden them since she could walk, she and Mama. They lived from
hand to mouth on the money that the sailors and fishermen paid Mama
when she took them to her bed. When times were very hard, they lived
on do-gooder charity.
As they passed beneath a street lamp Katie glanced up at the
familiar lines and angles of her mama’s thin face. Her mama was
looking straight ahead with her jaw set.
They were climbing now, up the hill, away from the wharf and the
ramshackle houses that lined the narrow by-ways and shops close to
the water. Katie fought for breath as they ascended. The houses up
here were larger, prettier, and surrounded by trees, part of a
forest that had once grown all the way down to the sea.
Well into unfamiliar territory now, Mama turned an-other corner.
Barely able to do more than shuffle behind her mother, Katie lifted
her head and saw a tall bell tower and the steeple of a brick
church. Her eyes tearing from cold, she struggled to read the sign
on the front of the building.
Saint-Per-pe-tua’s-Church.
Mama was fairly dragging her now, walking faster, more determined.
“Ma-ma?” Katie had to gasp for air. She wiped her eyes with the
kerchief.
“It’s somethin’ I have to do, Katie-girl. Somethin’ I should have
done long ago.”
Mama’s huge brown eyes were watering from the cold, too. A fat tear
slipped down her bony cheek.
The freezing night air, heavy and damp off the sea, burned Katie’s
lungs. She had never set foot inside a church before. In awe, she
stared at a ghostly white statue of a sad-faced young woman in a
niche above the door. Something
about the statue made her whisper.
“Are . . . we going . . . in there?”
The building looked old and sturdy. It was probably warm as toast
inside. If she could just sit down and catch her breath, maybe close
her eyes for a bit-
Mama tugged on her arm when Katie kept staring at the statue. Katie
sighed when they hurried past the church and the small graveyard
beside it.
Except for the sound of their hollow footsteps, the neighborhood
around them was silent. Not a single lamp was lit inside any of the
big houses lining the street.
Suddenly Mama stopped to open a small iron gate in a low fence
bordering the yard of another brick building, one almost as big as
the church. The gate clanged shut behind them, ominously loud, with
a sound that shattered the
silence.
The cobblestone walk that led up to the front of the brick building
was patched here and there with dirty snow left from the last
snowfall. Dead leaves trapped since fall peeked through. Katie
lifted her head.
Mama had already started up the six wide steps to the front porch.
Katie’s legs gave out after the first three. She knelt on the stair,
doubled over, coughing. Mama stood over her.
“I can’t lift you, Katie.”
“I know, Mama,” she whispered. She struggled to her knees and with
Mama pulling on her arm, made it to the porch. “Can I just sit here
a minute?”
Mama started beating on the heavy wood door with her fist.
Above the door hung a small gold-lettered sign. There was another
statue, too. Smaller, but it was the same sad lady who stared down
at her with her empty, marble eyes.
“Saint Per-petua’s Home for Orphan Girls.”
Orphan girls.
Katie slowly read the words again, faster this time, and frowned.
They didn’t know any orphan girls.
“Mama?”
Her mother pounded on the door again, then whirled around and knelt
down beside her. She grabbed Katie by the shoulders, leaned so close
their noses almost touched.
Mama was whispering frantically now, her raspy voice ragged and
hushed. She talked fast, as if her mind were running a race with her
tongue.
“This is for the best, Katie. Someday when you realize that, I hope
to God you’ll forgive me. I should have done this when you were born
so’s you wouldn’t remember. I’ve been selfish, Katie-girl, trying to
keep you with me, but it ain’t workin’ out, see?”
Panic squeezed Katie’s heart and lungs. She couldn’t breathe
anymore. “Mama-” She let go of the kerchief and desperately grabbed
hold of Mama’s coat sleeves.
“I gotta do it. Don’t you see, Katie? What kind of a life are you
going to have, growin’ up with me in that shack? Followin’ me
around? It’s bad for both of us, you and me.”
“You’re scaring me,” Katie wailed.
Mama’s eyes narrowed and her bottom lip trembled uncontrollably-that
frightened Katie more than anything. “I’m leavin’ you here with the
nuns where you’ll have a warm bed and plenty to eat.”
Katie stared in horror at the big door and the gold-lettered sign.
Inside, someone had lit a lamp. Yellow light bled through plain
white curtains. Her heart began to pound in her ears.
Mama’s fingers tore at hers as she tried to push her away.
“Let go, Katie!” Mama shoved her away. “Don’t make this worse for me
than it already is.”
Having freed herself, Mama stood up; she stepped back as Katie tried
to grab hold of the uneven hem of her coat. Mama dragged the cuff of
her sleeve across her eyes and then wiped her nose.
Katie jerked around at the chill whine of the front door’s hinges.
An elderly woman wearing eyeglasses and clothed entirely in black
stuck her head out, blinking against the icy chill.
“Yes? Who’s there?” The woman had a gentle voice, but Katie was
still frightened.
Katie expected her mother to answer, but when she turned around,
Mama was already down the cobblestone walk, hurrying through the
little iron gate.
“Mama!” Katie strangled on the sound, choked on a cough. She
struggled to her knees, grabbed the column of the porch rail beside
her, clawed her way to her feet.
The iron gate clanged with a lonely, hollow, terrible finality.
“Don’t leave me here, Mama! I’ll be good.” Her scream echoed through
the empty streets. She was gasping between sobs, fighting the
dizziness that clouded her vision.
“Come-b-b-ack!”
As she wilted toward the cold wooden porch floor where Mama’s torn
white hankie lay, Katie felt the old woman’s arms close around her,
heard the clack of wooden beads and a hushed prayer whispered beside
her ear.
“I won’t cough, Mama,” Katie sobbed, staring at the empty walk
through a blur of tears. “I . . . promise. I’ll . . . be good.”
1
Twenty Years
Later
Saint Perpetua's School for Orphan Girls
Applesby, Maine
October 1869
Kate awakened, heart pounding, blood racing. She did not move until
her pulse settled back into a slow, steady rhythm; then she drew
back the sheet and slowly slipped out of bed. Moonlight spilled
across her pillow.
She had long ago given up trying to sleep when the moon was full.
Nights bathed in moonlight held too many memories of the life she
had lived with her mother.
It was fall again. Maine nights had grown desperately cold already.
Kate shivered as she walked through a puddle of milk-white light to
the only window in her sparsely furnished attic room. A utilitarian
piece of unbleached muslin hung limp before the pane, as unadorned
as everything else in this world of routine and orderliness where
she had spent the better part of her life.
I stayed too long.
Kate drew aside the curtain and stared back at the man in the moon,
unable to think of anything except what Mother Superior had told her
after dinner when she had called her into the office: “I received
word today that the archdiocese is closing the school at the end of
the month, Katherine. We sisters are being sent to a new church
school in Minnesota. The girls will be relocated, but I’m afraid
that you will have to find other employment. I’m so sorry,
Katherine. I wish it could be otherwise, but there is nothing I can
do.”
Eleven years before, desperately in need of another teacher, the
good Sisters of Saint Perpetua had asked her to stay on after
graduation. She was given room and board and a small stipend in
exchange for teaching history and elocution to girls of all ages.
At eighteen, rather than face the streets of Applesby, she had
accepted the offer without hesitation, knowing that someday she
would have to go out into the world again. She promised herself that
one day she would resurrect her old dreams, that she would have that
pretty little home of her own and a family to hold dear.
As time slipped away and spinsterhood crept upon her, she devoted
eleven years to Saint Perpetua’s orphan girls and all the joys and
challenges of dealing with them. She had made a home here, one that
was safe and warm and familiar. The nuns and the orphans had become
her family.
She had a certificate of education. She could read and write in
Latin. She was a teacher, a scholar. A spinster with no living
relation. The thought of having to leave after so long filled her
heart with dread.
She had a little money put by, surely enough on which to survive
until she found other employment. She would have to find another
place to live-no easy task in a hamlet where her mother had been the
town whore.
She had nowhere to go, nowhere to turn, and no one to turn to-not
even her mother. On Kate’s eleventh birthday, Mother Superior had
told her that the old shack near the wharf had burned down, that her
mama had died, trapped
inside.
Even in death, Mama had been infamous.
Kate could not go to her mother and tell her that she had forgiven
her abandonment, or that she had cried herself to sleep for months,
missing her mama more than she would have missed her heart if it had
been taken from her.
Now she looked out the window at the round face of the man in the
moon.
“Where will I go? What will I do?”
The moon man smiled back.
Or perhaps he was laughing at her. She could not tell.
* * *
At the end of
October, when the butcher made his final call to the nuns for an
accounting, he found Kate standing outside the kitchen door with a
hand-me-down satchel in hand. When he asked where she was going and
she said that she did not really know, he took pity on her and told
her she was welcome to rent the empty room above his shop. He was
middle-aged and married, a portly man with fingers thick as the
sausages he stuffed, and almost entirely bald.
With no alternative in mind, Kate accepted. She rode the butcher’s
cart back to the shop, a sturdy whitewashed building near the center
of town that was frequented all day long by housewives and maids.
The room was adequate and clean, a refuge where Kate spent the
better part of the morning scouring up the courage to go out and
find employment.
That afternoon, the butcher’s wife knocked timidly on the door and
told her that she would have to leave on the morrow.
“Not that we don’t want you here, you see. It’s just that, well,
some folks still remember your ma, and folks tend to gossip. We
can’t afford to have our business ruined, you understand. It’s
nothing against you, of course.”
That was how Kate learned that Applesby had not forgotten Meg
Whittington-that like Mama’s, her name was still as tarnished as an
old copper pot.
She packed her somber dresses and scant personal belongings again.
The next day she held her head high, kept her tears inside, and
moved on.
* * *
She rented a room
in an old, gray weather-beaten shack by the wharf. It belonged to a
sickly old woman in need of coin more than she cared about Kate’s
name or her mother’s reputation. The stoop sagged and the corners of
the front door had been scratched raw and splintered by the old
woman’s flea-bitten dog.
It reminded Kate so much of the places she had lived with her mother
that once inside the small musty room, she sat down on the lumpy
mattress and burst into tears.
To escape the dreary place, she pulled herself together, put on her
hat, and picked up her crocheted reticule-a misshapen, handmade gift
from one of her girls. She slipped the drawstrings over her wrist
and walked away from the wharf, up Main Street and toward the
remnants of the tall evergreen forest that once grew down to the
sea.
She could not help but notice that some of the older folks stared as
she passed by. Slowly the shame she felt as a child began to attach
itself to her again.
She drew herself up tall and straight and walked on. The stares of
passersby confirmed what her mirror had always revealed-she was the
image of her mother. She had grown up looking into a reflection of
her mother’s eyes, wide-set and dark brown. She thought her lips too
full, her mouth far too toothy, like her mama’s, so she never smiled
too wide. Her arms and legs were long, her waist thin, her breasts
embarrassingly full. Thankfully, the few serviceable dresses she
owned were unadorned and drab and so overly modest that they did not
call attention to her figure at all.
She never thought she’d experience that old shame again, but the
sting was uncomfortably familiar, even after all these years.
She stopped by the printer’s and purchased a copy of the Applesby
Sentinel; then she strolled over to the small park in the middle of
the town square. She chose an empty bench beneath a maple covered
with dried leaves that refused to fall. The paper snapped as she
folded it back on itself, the corners luffed in the same breeze that
set the maple leaves whispering. She began to scan the
advertisements.
Since the school term had already begun, she doubted she would find
a teaching position, but someone in a nearby town was surely in need
of a nanny.
Quickly glancing past advertisements for real estate, gents’
clothes, and Aladdin stoves, she found one ad seeking a maid for a
boarding house in a village just up the coast. There was another for
a seamstress, but she had no talent for sewing.
A lumbermill needed a cook, but cooking was out of the question,
too, unless the men were of strong constitutions. Whenever she was
on kitchen duty, the nuns always offered up extra prayers.
Suddenly a small, boxed advertisement set off with fancy block type
one-third of the way down the page caught her eye.
RANCHER SEEKING WIFE
SEND A PHOTOGRAPH
WITH AN INTRODUCTORY
LETTER
TO: REED BENTON
LONE STAR RANCH, TEXAS
Kate slowly lowered the page to her lap and stared down at the
words.
Rancher seeking wife.
Wife.
Her long-buried dream shimmered like a mirage until the letters on
the page blurred.
All those secret wishes, all those hopes tucked away in the bottom
of her heart, dreams that had faded over the years she devoted to
the students of Saint Perpetua’s.
What if?
What if she were to leave Maine forever?
What if she were to reach out for her dream?
She ran her finger over the bold type, closed her eyes, and turned
her face toward the fragile fall sunlight. Just the word Texas
conjured all kinds of images. Wild, wide open spaces. Cattle and
cowboys. Indians. A handful of knowledge that she had gleaned
through reading various periodicals and accounts over the years.
A place to start over. A place to settle down where no one
recognized her. Perhaps even a place to start a family. When a dying
leaf drifted down from the maple and touched her cheek, she opened
her eyes. The breeze whipped across the square, picked up a few
fallen leaves, and sent them scuttling in a whirlwind dance. Kate
lifted the lumpy reticule and slid the crochet along the
draw-strings. Her savings lay at the bottom of the bag, a wad of
carefully folded bills and a few coins.
Surely there was enough to spare for a photograph.
Surely there was enough to gamble a bit of it on a dream.
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2
Seven Months
Later
Texas Frontier
Texas Ranger Company J.
May 1870
Spring was bleeding into another long, hot summer of raiding and
retaliation, another round of blood and death on the prairie.
Hidden in a gully a half mile from a Comanche summer encampment,
gut-tight, mounted, and ready to charge, Reed Benton and a company
of twenty-three men watched Capt. Jonah Taylor ride down the line of
troops, giving last-minute instructions as dawn stained the morning
sky.
Sandy-haired and wiry, a born leader, Jonah Taylor was not only
Company J Ranger captain, but Reed’s best friend.
Reed gave Jonah a nod of encouragement when the man passed by. There
were no formalities among the Rangers, no uniforms, no military law
or precedent. The men were divided into military units and
officered, but all else was loosely run. Unlettered farm boys fought
beside educated men like himself. Usually outmanned, they made up
for their lack of numbers with daring.
All along the line, horses as well as men shifted, anxious, all
fully aware of what they were about to face. Reed wished he didn’t
know, wished himself anywhere else-which he knew damn well was no
way to go into battle.
Back when other men were leaving Texas to fight the last few battles
for the Confederacy, he had joined the Rangers to patrol the
frontier. He had thought to protect the settlers living there, knew
he would be chasing down renegade Comanche, but he had never
anticipated rounding up women and children.
Ever since the war ended, the new government sent sporadic help from
Washington, but never enough. Texans had suffered nearly thirty
years of Comanche attacks, broken treaties, theft, mutilation, and
death. They were all sick of it, and rightly so.
Nearly everyone in the state had lost kin or acquaintances to the
hostile clans through death or capture. Most Tejanos were of a mind
that only the extermination of the plains tribes would ever settle
the score and bring peace to the frontier.
“You men know what to do.” Jonah kept his voice low as he swung his
gaze up and down the line. They were comrades in war, friends, at
times pranksters, rarely family men. Rangers were known far and wide
for their aggressiveness, and because of that, they rarely suffered
casualties. “Three women were taken a week ago, along with two
girls, eleven and twelve years old. If they’re alive, they’ll most
likely be hidden in the lodges. Don’t set any fires unless you’ve
rousted everyone out. If we’re lucky, they’re here, in this camp.
There don’t look to be very many warriors around, just some outlying
guards.”
Reed drew his rifle out of its scabbard, touched one of the two
pistols he wore at his waist, and then reached up and shoved his hat
on tighter. He had done this countless times-ridden into hostile
camps, rousted out women, children, and toothless old folk that the
warriors left behind while they were out stealing horses, burning
cabins, and taking captives.
He wished to God the Comanche would simply turn over the captives
and go back to the reservation without a fight, but he might just as
well have wished horses could fly. It was the way of the Comanche to
raid and take cattle, horses, and captives and not only from white
settlers, but from other tribes.
Jonah gave a whistle and as one, the Ranger Company swarmed up and
out of the gully. Like a dark stain spreading across the prairie,
the company raced toward the small encampment, intent on finding the
captive women and evening the score.
Comanche sentries shouted and fired warning shots, alerting the
inhabitants of what amounted to a clan with thirty tepees staked on
the plain. Reed and the others answered back with their own fire,
riding straight into the midst of the camp, firing in the air to
cause as much confusion as possible so that the captives, if they
were able, could break free and show themselves.
Gunfire erupted all around as Reed rode between the decorated
buffalo hide lodges, instinctively aware of which Comanche were
running frantically to save themselves and which others were armed
and ready to defend the camp. All the while, he, like the other
Rangers, was on the lookout for captives-a flash of blond or red
hair, pale or sunburned skin, blue eyes, cries for help in English.
Some whites had been captive for so long they were indistinguishable
from Comanche. Others had been with a clan for so long that they
would run from the Rangers, clutching their half-Comanche children
to their breasts.
Cookfires were scattered by charging horses. Lodges burned. The
acrid smell of scorched hides hung heavy on the air. There was
little real resistance from the inhabitants except for the handful
of braves, but women and even children would fight to defend the
camp.
Reed caught sight of a pack of youngsters, boys between eight and
twelve, running swift and free as coyotes across the open plain.
Despite the confusion around him, his heart involuntarily
constricted. He was compelled to watch. Then suddenly, one of the
Rangers behind him called out a warning and Reed whirled around in
time to fire at an old man charging him with a long lance.
He had come a heartbeat away from being skewered in the back.
He had no time to react before he thought he heard a woman’s cry for
help in pure English, so he spun his horse around in the direction
of the sound, and before he could respond, a bullet slammed into his
shoulder and sent him reeling backwards. Grabbing for his saddle
horn, he hung on and pulled himself upright. Then a second shot
grazed his temple, and he went down.
* * *
"You're a lucky
man, Benton."
Doc Harper shook his head as he wound a bit of remaining bandage
into a ball and stowed it back into the worn and sagging satchel
that served as a medicine bag. "Doc" was no more a doctor than any
of the other Rangers, but he had a way with sick horses and wounded
men and could keep them patched up until they could get some real
care.
"Funny, but I don't feel lucky right now. My head hurts like hell."
Truth be told, Reed found it hard to focus, but figured that was to
be expected after the bullet put a new part in his hair just above
his ear.
"That shoulder's bound to trouble you, too. Best you get yourself
somewhere you can have it sewn up. The bullet passed clean through,
so don't let anybody go digging for it again. I already did that and
it ain't to be found.”
Reed sat up and looked around. They were a few yards from the
encampment where the Rangers had set up a holding area for the
Comanche they had rounded up. The dead were laid out a few yards
away. Jonah was striding toward him, his expression tight enough to
cut deep grooves around his mouth.
"I'm not done for yet," Reed told him, hoping that saying it out
loud would make it so. He tried to focus, forced himself to keep his
head up but it throbbed like a war drum with every beat of his
heart. He expected Jonah to make light of the situation, to make a
joke to cheer him, but the man didn't even crack a smile.
Reed's stomach knotted. "What's wrong? Who died?"
"We didn't lose a single man. You were our worst casualty. Killed
seven of their warriors, three women." Jonah looked out across the
plain. "No children. We recovered two of the captive women and both
girls. The third woman died on the way here. The others saw it.
They're all in pretty bad shape."
Jonah didn't have to elaborate on what had happen to the captives
between the time they were taken and the arrival at the camp. There
wasn't a grown Texan alive who didn't know the fate of women
captives.
"Sounds like . . . " Reed tried to clear his mind of the pain and
fought for words. "Sounds like it went well. Why the long face?"
"We found a boy you should see. He's about the right age. And I'll
be a damn pole cat if he doesn't have your eyes."
The pounding in Reed's head was instantly drowned out by the beating
of his heart.
Doc reminded him that he was there by handing Reed his shirt. Jonah
gave him a hand up, kept a hold of Reed's arm until the ground
stopped spinning and he could stand on his own.
"Can you walk?"
"Yeah." Reed nodded, shrugging into his tattered, blood-soaked
shirt. He could walk. He just didn't know if he wanted to follow
Jonah. As they started toward where the Comanche were being held, he
hoped with every step that Jonah was dead wrong.
The prisoners had been separated by gender, bound hand and foot,
tied side by side. Older children were huddled in their own area,
trying to appear fierce and sullen, failing miserably, their fear so
palpable that Reed could smell it. None of them realized yet that
they were not facing death or torture, the fate of anyone captured
by the Comanche, but that a contingent of men would escort them to
the reservation at Fort Sill in Oklahoma.
Jonah led him over to a boy who looked to be about eight years old.
He sat alone, separated from the others, but like the others, he had
been hobbled to keep him from running.
Reed stood over him, his breath coming rapid and shallow, suddenly
lightheaded from more than his wounds. He put his hand over the
makeshift bandage on his shoulder, felt warm moisture seeping
through. He stepped close to the boy, so close the toes of his boots
were nearly touching the child's knees, but the boy didn't look up.
Jonah bent down and cupped the boy's chin, forced him to raise his
head and look up.
Reed's breath left him in a whoosh. Despite the child's tear
streaked, grubby face framed by dark, shoulder length hair, one
glance into those Benton eyes was all it took for Reed to know what
Jonah and the other men standing nearby already suspected.
After five long years, Daniel Benton had been found.
Not his Daniel, Reed reminded himself. The child clothed in a
reservation issue long-tailed red shirt and a hide loincloth sat
hunched over with down-cast eyes. His expression was as grim as the
rest of the captured Comanche. He was not the innocent toddler he
had lost, but what captivity had made of him.
Staring at Daniel brought everything back to him, all the old
painful memories of his marriage to Becky, the day Daniel was born
at Lone Star, his pride upon hearing that he had a son. He recalled
the plans he had made for their future, his vow to be a better
father than his own. His promise to his infant son that he would
listen to him, to try and understand, above all to let the boy
follow his heart.
The filthy, half-naked child sitting in the dirt at his feet was the
same little boy he had carried on his shoulders, taken everywhere
with him, tucked in at night.
He had joined the Rangers driven by the need to rescue Daniel, but
over time that incessant, driving need had ebbed until he believed
this day would never come to pass.
So much had happened the night that Daniel was taken that Reed had a
hard time trying to make sense of his feelings. The man he had been
before would have wept for joy. He would have knelt and embraced his
son.
Now not only pain, confusion and uncertainty tempered his reaction,
but so did the knowledge that the years Daniel spent among the
Comanche had done irreparable harm. Reed didn't know what in the
hell to do or to say. His wounds did nothing but befuddle his dazed
mind even more.
"Daniel?" The word caught in his throat and threatened to choke him.
Could the boy understand anything? Did he remember his name?
Daniel refused to look up. In the midst of the company of men, aware
of little but the throbbing pain in his head and shoulder, of all
the grimfaced Rangers watching him, Reed reached down, impatiently
jerked the rope off the boy's feet and hauled Daniel up by the arm.
Daniel immediately howled in pain and crumpled, dangling from Reed's
hand. Jonah hurriedly stepped up to them.
"He's hurt, Reed." Jonah lowered his voice for Reed's ears alone.
Reed closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose, trying to
clear his head. Then he looked down at the boy's bare legs. One of
his ankles was swelling above his beaded moccasin.
An infant's piercing mournful wail cut the hot, dry air and brought
the reality of the morning's action home. Close by, fires smoldered
as tepees and hides continued to burn. Smoke tainted the wide, clear
blue sky.
"Take him home, Reed. Go back to Lone Star. See the boy settled in
and give your shoulder a chance to heal." Jonah appeared uneasy, as
if there was more he wanted to say but he held his peace.
Glancing around, Reed ignored the stares of his comrades. He spoke
to the boy again but was ignored, so he wrapped one around Daniel's
waist and scooped him up. Holding him against his side beneath his
good arm, Reed walked passed the gathering of Rangers. He found his
horse, tossed Daniel up in front of the saddle, somehow managed to
keep hold of the boy and the reins and mounted up.
As soon as he hit the saddle, he suffered an intense wave of
dizziness. chilled and light headed, he ached to lay down. The last
thing he wanted to face in this condition was the long ride back to
the ranch. Nor did he look forward to seeing his father again--but
nothing short of death was going to stop him from taking Daniel back
to Lone Star.

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